Pain you say?

Pain you say?
Yes, since i don’t like to talk bout it I will make this so if interested you can read about it.
My spine has a bone to many and my muscle is a bit tilted the wrong way and that creates pain that you cant fix, thats all i feel is necessary to say usually, but now I will try to explain more

How it affects my daily life:
I tend to have mood swings depending on my pain and what I take to prevent it. I can’t sleep properly at night because I wake up in the middle of the night in pain and if I take something to prevent it i still wake up in pain because the pills only lasts 2-3 hours or that the pill has caffeine in it -.-
Once a month i get pain ower-load (It’s what i call it) It means that I am walking home from school/work and suddenly I can’t ignore the pain any more and I can’t handle it. I start crying and cant stop, I call my friends and family so they can calm me down threw the phone by telling me about their day and distracting me inuff until i get home. Luckily I live in Sweden and nobody bothers me when i cry in public.

How it affects being an adult:
I have been searching for a job for a year now, nobody wants a broken young girl, but when I am ready I will move to the capital of Sweden and start studying to become an art teacher. But it’s hard to get in to the course :/

Well to end this…
I want to say that there is nothing to do.. I know some of you want to say some suggestions on reliving pain, but there is none i been to good doctors. But i thank you for caring inuff to read this text filled whit dyslectic miss spellings.